“Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom” (Psalm 90:12).
Sometimes this life of chronic illness feels like walking around with an expiration date. The pain reminds us of the weakness of this earthly body.
It’s easy to fall into a pattern of self-pity, isn’t it? It’s easy to dwell on every single task with a “this might be the last time I” attitude.
There’s a reason it’s called the “shadow of death.” It casts its shadow over everything and insists on following right behind.
Perhaps your mortality is something that you just feel more strongly than most, or perhaps a doctor has assigned you a specific amount of time to expect to live.
Either way, you can be certain that your life on earth is exactly as long as God intended for it to be.
You can rest assured that He will grant you enough time and energy for every necessary task.
“Show me, Lord, my life’s end and the number of my days;
let me know how fleeting my life is.
You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
the span of my years is as nothing before You.
Everyone is but a breath even those who seem secure (Psalm 39:4-5).
I find it easier to release the fear once I’ve opened up my grasp and let the smaller things fall away. The psalmist’s request is one we can echo.
Prayer: Teach us, O Lord, to number our days. The span of my years is as nothing before You. May every breath be used in service, to bring You glory. Thank You that we can trust that the number of our days is just right and always according to Your perfect plan. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.
About the author:
Shelly Hendricks is a wife and mother of 2 amazing kids. They live the good life in South Louisiana. She was a teacher and a librarian in another life. She also suffers from Intracranial Hypertension and a yet-unnamed neuro degenerative disease, among a myriad of other issues mostly stemming from these two. She had brain surgery in 2012, to install a VP Shunt, and had a revision in January 2014. Though her condition continues to deteriorate, her spirit is constantly focused on eternity. Disability has been hard to deal with, but she depends on God for all strength and hopes to encourage others on this journey, through her blog at http://reneweddaily.com
How can you begin to see your expiration date with hope, rather than fear?
Shelly thought his song would touch your heart. It is called “Life Means So Much” with Chris Rice. I have shared in the thoughts Shelly describes. Sometimes it can be a healthy way to live each moment, appreciating the days we are given. And yet it is so easy for out thoughts to overwhelm us and threaten to take away our joy. I hope this video blesses you. -Lisa