“Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own” (Matthew 6:34).
I have a fear of commitment. But it’s not what you think.
I have no fear of being committed to my husband but committing to planned activities such as weddings, graduations, family get-togethers, etc.
With chronic illness, one doesn’t know how they will feel in the next couple of hours let alone in the next couple of days or weeks.
Despite this truth, many events of this life require an RSVP.
With chronic illness, I live in the moment. I can plan all I want but that doesn’t mean anything if I don’t feel well when it’s time to leave for the event.
I’ve even had times where I got myself showered, dressed, and ready to go but that process was so tiring that I had no energy left to attend the event (this is so frustrating!)
I am so hesitant to commit because people don’t always understand when you have to cancel last minute. Not to mention the enormous amount of guilt I feel when I can’t make it.
We need to give our plans to the Lord and trust Him to work things out. You’re all familiar with “let go and let God”. This is a simple concept but very hard to live out. If there were a “secret” to make this part of living with health issues easier, I’d share.
There is a silver lining because God does work things out. He provides the strength we need to attend the event or the peace we need when we can’t. He cares about every appointment on our calendars and to-do lists!
Prayer: Dear Lord, help me to trust in you when I make a commitment to attend an event. Help me to know you will see me through no matter what happens. Amen.
About the author:
Karen Weber is from the MidWest and lives with her husband. She has been diagnosed with several autoimmune diseases for over 20 years. She has led a support group and has taught classes for the community on “Living Well with Chronic Illness”.
Do you struggle with committing to a party, get-together, or family event? How do you handle it when you have to cancel at the last minute?
This is Anthem Lights singing the song “The Unknown.” I can so relate to Karen’s devotional, as I am sure you can as well. It can be difficult to make plans when we aren’t sure if we can really follow through with them or not. This is a great song that speaks to that unknown part of life we, with chronic illness, deal with hourly!
The lyrics says how we are right at home in the unknown and we aren’t there alone. God has been there all along. What a reassuring thought. Hope this adds some perspective. The next time you go to make plans and aren’t sure if you should, remember, God already knows the outcome and is there. -Lisa