“Then David was angry because the Lord’s wrath had broken out against Uzzah, and to this day that place is called Perez Uzzah” (2 Samuel 6:8).
My thorn in the flesh is constantly poking and prodding me, anger is my continual companion. It robs me of joy by continually flaring up, unwelcome and unwanted. The anger is seemingly waiting, ready to pounce in every situation.
Anger is a constant challenge for some of us, driven and rising because of our illnesses. We would like to be free of it, but like a leech it doesn’t want to let go of us.
Affliction can keep your emotions raw and irritated, a sort of inflammation of your feelings. Too many times I have looked back on my angry feelings and reactions and realized they were far out of proportion to the situation that seemingly triggered the angry response. Even when I know the response was fed by my illnesses, it doesn’t help.
Too often, those around us, loved ones and friends are affected most by our emotional responses driven by our afflictions. It is challenging to reign in strong emotional responses and avoid harming or frustrating those who love and support us, especially our primary caregivers.
Yet it does no good to bury our emotions or to pretend we are not upset or angry. I think we must be honest about our emotions. And we also must recognize that the anger we think we are feeling toward loved ones, or are blaming on certain situations is too often arising because of our ongoing illness and stress that drives our emotions, coming from the constant tension we are under.
You may be feeling angry and upset today. Perhaps the root cause of your emotional response has more to do with your illness than any person or situation. Ask the Lord to help you work through these feelings, and to be honest about why you are truly upset.
Prayer: Dear Lord, help us to properly deal with our emotions, and not take our anger out on others, but to give our strong emotional responses to You. Amen.
About the Author:
Karlton Douglas lives in Ohio with his lovely wife. He is grateful for the patience of friends and family members, and for the Lord’s constant help in his afflictions.
Does your anger or emotions sometimes carry you away? Have you tried giving your anger to the Lord, and asking for His help with your emotions?
Anger is a natural part of coping with our chronic pain, but God warns us not to let it control us or define us. This song is “Back’s Against The Wall” with the group Judah and the Lion. The lyrics talk of how our head may not be able to fully understand what we feel down in our soul and too often we feel like our back is against the wall, but there is always hope. Jesus can make a “dead” man come back to life. It is hard to choose life. I must choose it every single day–life over the emotions. Hoping you rely in God’s strength to do so as well. -Lisa