“When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom” (Proverbs 11:2).
Because of my scleroderma, I have what is referred to as “mouse face,” and my fingers are puffy and shiny and look like sausages. Add to that the fact that they are blue most of the time (picture “Smurf hands”). People notice that something is wrong.
It isn’t a reflection of the person I am inside, and sometimes it makes me a little depressed.
Maybe your physical appearance is different because of your illness. Perhaps your joints are deformed, or medicine has given you some unwanted extra pounds, or you have to walk with a cane or can only get around in a wheelchair, which draws negative attention to you.
Most of us do not like negative attention, and let’s face it, it is probably because we like to have pride in our appearance.
Perhaps you have depression from another form of pride. Does some of the despair you feel result from not being able to rely on your own power? You want to be able to get up in the morning and do what you want to do, not what your ailing body allows you to accomplish that day.
You don’t want to be limited by God, especially when you have experienced years of self-sufficiency only to have that unexpectedly snatched away.
Pride in any form is not pleasing to God. He sees the beauty in you, and it isn’t the outside He is concerned about. It isn’t the real you. How many of us have known people who were beautiful on the outside, were drawn to them, only to discover they were not quality people on the inside?
God wants you to develop your beautiful soul and spirit. and sometimes He has to get rid of your pride for your true beauty to emerge.
Prayer: Lord God, help me to see if pride is the root of my depression, and help me to overcome it. Give me eyes to see what You see in me, and help me to be beautiful on the inside, so that people will be drawn to You. Amen.
About the author:
Julie Buckley was diagnosed with mixed connective tissue disease in 1995 (scleroderma, rheumatoid arthritis, lupus and polymyositis) along with fibromyalgia. She lives in the midwest with her husband and has a grown son. She also has a blog site called “Healthy Souls,” which encourages Christians to grow stronger through their physical weakness, http://jabuckle.wordpress.com/
Could God be breaking down your pride to make you more like Christ and develop your inner beauty?
We can try so hard to be picture perfect sometimes and then grow discouraged when we feel we don’t measure up to our own expectations. Amy Grant sings, “Don’t Try So Hard” in this sweet video that I hope you can apply to your own life in so many ways. Sometimes we can stop trying so hard and rest in God’s grace. -Lisa