“He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities. For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear Him; as far as the east is from the west, so far has He removed our transgressions from us. As a father has compassion on his children, so the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him” (Psalm 103:10-13).
When I was first diagnosed with my illness, my mind immediately questioned whether I was being punished for something I had done against God. I had a mental picture of God’s foot stepping down to crush me as a result of that unknown offense I had committed.
The devil will bombard you with thoughts of the things you have done and continue to do wrong, convincing you that God is angry and your illness is the result of that anger. He wants to destroy your trust in Him, and although he cannot take away the power of Jesus’ blood to wipe away those sins, he can make you think you are paying for them.
We have all sinned (Romans 3:23), but those sins have already been paid for. You are cleansed of any bad thing you have done if you are a Christian because of Jesus’ sacrifice. As the song says, “What can wash away my sins? Nothing but the blood of Jesus.”
God may allow sickness to teach us or to shape us in some way, but He does not deal with things we do wrong by pouring out his wrath on Christians.
The enemy would love for you to think that He no longer loves you or maybe loves you a little less than He does other people. That perhaps He is angry with you for something. Mind games. Satan is really good at them. Refuse to play. James 4:7 says, “Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” Tell him right now you refuse to believe his lies!
Prayer: Lord God, I know Jesus has paid the price for everything I have done wrong. Help me to see Your love and compassion for me, and to truly know in my heart that my suffering is not punishment from You. Amen.
About the Author:
Julie Buckley was diagnosed with mixed connective tissue disease in 1995 (scleroderma, rheumatoid arthritis, lupus and polymyositis) along with fibromyalgia. She lives in the midwest with her husband and has a grown son. She also has a blog site called “Healthy Souls,” which encourages Christians to grow stronger through their physical weakness, http://jabuckle.wordpress.com/.
If God is not punishing you with your suffering, could He possibly be shaping you in some way?
It can be hard to accept that God’s workings in our life do not always appear as though we would expect. We think that we are being punished–and people even tell us this! This is “Keep Making Me” with Sidewalk Prophets. They sing to the Lord, asking Him to keep making them who He wants them to be–whatever that may entail along the way. It may seem odd to ask God to make us broken, empty and lonely, but what He does with this is all part of His plan for our lives. I hope you enjoy it… it has some touching lyrics. -Lisa