“Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?” (Job 2:10).
Job’s logic is sound, but did you ever need to take a biblical principle and reverse it? I have with this one. It will soon be 20 years since chronic pain and illness interrupted my average life, and I have developed some bad habits.
One is called “waiting for the other shoe to drop.”
My recent history has been one crisis after another, to the point that I have grown pretty used to events I would have considered horrendous years ago. It takes a lot to surprise me these days.
My sad situations have put me in the pathway of other people on the rebound from trauma, so I have heard some gut-wrenching stories. And I have grown cynical.
Have your medical complications caused you to expect negative outcomes at every turn? Lately, this has infected my personal and family life.
So imagine, if you can, how challenging it has been when the Lord sends major signs of encouragement. I don’t know how to take it.!
The feeling is surreal and almost like the Twilight Zone. I am waiting for the credits to roll because this has to be a movie I am living!
So why can’t I take the good anymore? I suspect it is because my journey has taken me to the core of my soul’s depravity. I have been so aware of the effects of sin on planet earth, that I am almost surprised at redemption.
Thus, I am making it a goal to revel in the joy of redemption. It is high time I see my circumstance through my spiritual birthright instead of viewing blessings as “dessert” waiting for me in glory. I hope this season will bring with it more balance and childlike abandon into my story.
Prayer: Father, I have become a pessimist from the fiery trials lately. Open my eyes to Your joy as the stone rolls away from my weary heart. Resurrect a right spirit within me. Amen.
About the author:
Elizabeth Vendley has been living with a “contrary body” as a result of surgical complications in 1996. She gratefully reports that her health has stabilized enough recently to hold a job. Her challenges include interstitial cystitis, dumping syndrome, and closed angle glaucoma. She enjoys sharing with readers in the Sunroom.
Do you find yourself assuming that life will be full of suffering and few blessings? How do you avoid this from infecting all areas of your life?
I so related with Elizabeth’s devotional and I thought of one of my favorite songs by artist Meredith “Pieces.” In this song she refers to wearing our scars like they are who we are. While our scars may influence who we are God can take all our pieces and make a beautiful life. I hope you enjoy this one and that it makes you ponder a bit. Are you hiding who God desire you to be because of hanging on to all the pieces of suffering a little too tightly? -Lisa