Do I Need To Keep My Head Above Water?

Do you find yourself barely keeping on top of things, like your head above water? Kerryn explains.

“They were glad when it grew calm, and He guided them to their desired haven” (Psalm 107:30).

There are many sayings that are really quite unhelpful to how I think and feel, deep within my soul.

God recently revealed how to look afresh at “When it rains, it pours.” Yet, within a day or so I was repeating a new saying to myself, over and over again.

I’m keeping my head above water. . . Just!

Each time I’d say this silently in my head I’d feel another level of fear, anxiety, and dread sweep over me. Sometimes I’m a bit slow at realising that God is tapping me, suggesting that I come to Him for help. Finally, I did.

First, the Lord showed me all of the fearful thoughts that this saying creates. Anxiety and terror arose with awful thoughts that relate to being stuck underwater. Then He took my mind to an interesting and surprising memory from about 11 years ago.

One afternoon I took my youngest son to his friend’s house. Both children had significant disabilities and it was this that drew them together.

This day was really hot and both boys immediately raced down to the pool, while the mother and I sat watching, with a cool drink, in the shade. To my surprise my son’s friend would lower his head below the water and stay there. I started to get panicky, as he wasn’t coming up for air for ages. His mother reassured me that underwater was her son’s favorite place to be. It was calm and quiet with no air bothering his body, which usually felt uncomfortable.

Her son had Asperger syndrome and he rarely felt comfortable. I knew well, from teaching him that his skin was very sensitive to touch and often felt in pain. However, when underwater he was calm and happy with all senses dulled.

He would come up for air with a massive smile on his face. He wasn’t coming up gasping for air, as I thought he would. He’d simply slowly bob up and take a few breaths and then slide down underwater again.

Meanwhile, my child was emptying the pool with dive bombs and wild splashing! His attention deficit hyperactive disorder (ADHD) was evident. It didn’t matter how wild it was above the water though, underwater was calm!

Since God has brought this memory alive again with new meaning, I’ve calmed. The sting has gone out of the saying.

Underwater can be calm. I simply need to slowly and calmly bob up for air, from my wild and crazy circumstances, and allow God to calm me in my haven.

Prayer: Lord, help me to stop thrashing about! Thank You for the peace that You breathe into me when I choose to stop and ask You for help. Come now and breathe gently into me so that I can breathe calmly. Amen.

About the Author:
Kerryn Wright lives with her family amongst the gum trees in South Australia. She was a special education teacher prior to chronic illnesses. Her husband is carer for three of their family, who have chronic illnesses and disabilities. God has always guided them through life’s challenges, often in surprising ways.

Are there any sayings that need altering. that will help your day to day calm? How does God help you to breathe more easily?

This is a photo of what is inside a bowl sitting on Kerry’s coffee table to remind her of God’s message. She thought you would enjoy this song, “Breath” by Michael W. Smith. Take a moment to focus on nothing but who God is. -Lisa