My Plans Versus God’s Plans For My Life of Illness

my plans“But I liked my plans!” What happens when God’s plans are different than your plans? Christy shares her story.

“Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, ‘Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.'” (Hebrews 13:5)

For years, I had grand plans for a successful life. I married my husband at the age of 19 and was at a place where I was going to finish up my doctorate in marriage and family therapy and have a private practice helping people. Life was moving right along–personally and professionally–until the day I was told I may have a rare brain disorder.

My entire world was yanked out from under me as I tried to process what the doctor had said. I had always heard life can change in an instant, but never thought it would happen to me. As tears trickled down my face, the thoughts that ran through my heart were overwhelming.

I am now over 3 years into the diagnosis and have finally come to terms, for the most part, with the life God has for me–which means letting go of my plans. I had to give up school, teaching Sunday school, and my job. I have had 5 brain surgeries and enough tests that I probably glow fluorescent yellow. I continue to have spinal taps frequently.

It is often during my most difficult moments God reminds He will never leave me. Precious person, today is the day for you to take a step back, inhale deeply, focus on God, and remember He has been here since the very beginning. God understands what we are facing and knows perfectly how to handle every situation.

Take today for what it is and remain faithful to our Creator who promises never to leave or forsake us. There will be days you feel like you are at the end of your rope, but it is on those days you will be able to look back and see your best spiritual lessons have been learned.

Dear Heavenly Father, We come to the Throne of Grace and thank You for Your promises. Sometimes our ability to remember them become overshadowed by the circumstances we are facing in the moment. Please help us to hold on to the promises You have given us and to look for a miracle in each day. In Jesus Name, Amen.

About the author:
Christy Sparks lives in Northeast Florida with her husband, Billy. She worked for a non-profit social services agency for several years prior to her diagnosis. She has chronic idiopathic intracranial hypertension and fibromyalgia. Christy has had 7 surgeries, countless tests, and ongoing spinal taps to control the spinal fluid in her body. Her focus since diagnosis has evolved from one of “I must be successful” to “Lord, I pray for the grace to get through this life and to learn all you would have for me.”

Have you ever had a situation where you felt your world was knocked out from under you? If so, what was your immediate response to it? Did you wonder, “what will happen to my plans?” Or you hold on to the promises of God? Which promises do you hold closest during your most difficult life moments?

This is a video of the group Blue Tree singing, “God’s Plan.” It has a beat to it and though some people may think of it as less of a worship song, this is the kind of music we like to put on when we have to clean the kitchen or take a walk. What do you think?