When Illness Overwhelms You and God Asks “What Are You Going to Do?”

“If it is disagreeable in your sight to serve the Lord, choose for yourselves today whom you will serve: whether the gods which your fathers served which were beyond the river, or the gods of the Amorites in whose land you are living; but as for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” (Joshua 24:15)

Some days I forget what the bad days are like. Other days, it hits me in the face. It is as if an invisible line has been drawn and the question asked, “deni, what are you going to do?”

Today, reality sets in. I want to. . . not exactly complain–but truly look at all that is happening in our lives. I usually look away.

My husband’s illness has progressed to where he can no longer work. How will we survive financially?

A tiny voice asks myself how long he will survive with his cancer and Parkinson’s and who knows what else is happening to him now.

That same voice wonders about myself. My clotting factor is way off. For some reason, my blood thinner is not working. “I think it’s a malabsorption thing,” my doc says. What other things am I not absorbing? My memory is flagging. Last night I forgot my heart medication.

My Spondylitis is causing me grief. I recently took up painting. My doctor explained that realistically I should stop. It’s causing inflammation in my neck and arms.

I’ve a “suspicious” set of skin spots that look similar to the skin cancer I had removed.

It goes on and on.

And on.

I want to look at God and ask, “What gives? Isn’t there enough to deal with already?”

Yet, I know I am looking in the wrong direction. The more I focus on those problems, the larger they loom until I am cowering at their feet. And so – the question.

“deni, what are you going to do?”

Trust me, I want to moan and groan and complain. I want to throw the world’s largest pity party. I’d like to invite everyone I know.

But what will I do?

For starters, I’ll work on my daily devotional blog. Encouraging others encourages me. I’ll put on my play list of “uplifting” music as I write. I’ll go to my iphone Bible and listen to Scripture. I’m attempting to listen to the Bible in a year. I’ll work on memorizing Romans 8. I’ll pray.

I’ll take the stamps off the pity party invitations.

I’ll make the choice once again.

“But for me and my household, we will serve the Lord.”

Prayer: Father God, Thank you that in each and every situation, you give us a choice. Quite simply, help us to choose you. Amen and amen.

About the author:
Deni believes that the only true way to deal with chronic pain and chronic illness is to bring them to the feet of her Lord and Savior. Her multiple illnesses (Celiac Sprue, Atrial Fibrillation, Ankylosing Spondylitis, to name a few) have taught her many things about herself and her Christian walk. It is her fondest prayer that some of her lessons might be helpful to others as they walk the path of chronic illness. deni can be reached at her webpage at http://www.todaysencouragingwordonline.com

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What do you do when life overwhelms you? Do you have a strategy in place for facing those days? Is God at the top of your list of “things to do”?