Fear is something that we cope with nearly every day when we live with a chronic illness. In only the last few days I have been afraid I would not be able to get the things done that I had planned. I feared my computer was about to crash again I feared that some of the bills would not be paid. I feared that a doctor would not be covered by my insurance. I fear the new drugs I am about to try won’t work. Many would say that these fears are mild compared to others. I know that they are surface fears, but to me they are still very much real.
I have been going through our past devotionals from 1999 and came across the above paragraph from a devotion I wrote over ten years ago. Ironically, in the last week, I have dealt with all of these same fears. I am in the process of running a “fix it” program on my computer, wondering if we should see a financial adviser, and just applied for medication assistance for a drug my doctor wants me on, which will cost me–after the insurance pays–nearly $5000 a year.
The more things change, the more they remain the same, right?
So what was my advice in 1999?
For us to live with the peace that we so desire we must be willing to turn our fears over to God and allow him to rescue us from them. For our fears do set a trap. When we are self-sufficient, unwilling to depend on Christ in the way that He desires us to, we set up a trap into which Satan can
pour in self-doubts, more fears, despair and hopelessness.
My mom and I discussed this just last week. We recognize that sometimes fears come true; sometimes the worst thing that can happen, does actually happen. But we never let our fears hold us back. Sometimes those fears are realistic warning signs from God that we must listen to, but many times they are just worries that are unnecessary. And when we recognize our fears and they do not come true, it gives us a deeper appreciation for every moment we have.
Instead of focusing on my fears, I need to focus on how I can give God an opportunity to provide me with joy–maybe even a miracle!
Write this verse down and put it somewhere you can glance at it when you begin to feel fearful and whisper it to God this week when fears come into your thoughts. Fight the urge to set a trap into which you will fall. God can rescue us in a moment from this trap of fearfulness, but we must be willing to reach
out for His hand to pull us out.
Prayer: Lord, help me to turn over my fears to you. I want to be able to freely make decisions, counting on your goodness and grace and not on my fears or insecurities.
About the Author:
Lisa Copen is the founder of Rest Ministries and she has lived with rheumatoid arthritis since 1993. If you enjoy these devotionals, you may love her book Mosaic Moments: Devotionals for the Chronically Ill which includes devotions from about 20 writers and a journey through Lisa’s first ten years of living with a chronic illness.
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How do your fears effect your life? Do you allow them to take over in worries or rather use them to appreciate every moment?