Lately I seem to be full of all kinds of emotions. When I’m in a flare I tend to feel helpless, lonely, and depressed. One would think that after spending seventeen years with chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia I would not have these feelings anymore. But they are there.
Thoughts creep in like: Who will take care of me if I can’t even take care of myself? Who will help me with my children? Will my husband run out of patience or be cold and distant? I know I need to bring ever thought captive to Christ. How do you do that when you feel like your brain is mush?
I was in the car with my husband and children the other day. I just needed to get out of the house. I was taking in the beautiful scenery. I cracked open the window and let the breeze sweep over me.
I started talking to God. It went something like this:
“God, I feel like I’m in a deep, dark place right now. I can’t even muster up enough energy or clear thinking to pray. Please take me as I am. Infuse me with your joy and peace. Right now I don’t have any. Hold me and transform me through my circumstances.”
Do any of you feel like you are in a deep, dark place? Let Him be your strength. Let him be your comfort. Remember He accepts you just as you are!
Prayer: Thank you so much for taking me as I am. Sometimes I feel like I can’t make it one more day. On those days will you take what little I have to offer and make something beautiful of it?
About the Author:
Tanya Fierro is from Pennsylvania and lives with her husband and two teenage children. She has had chronic fatigue syndrome and fibromyalgia for seventeen years. She enjoys comforting those with the comfort God has shown her. You may see more of her thoughts at http://www.motheringfromdaytoday.blogspot.com.
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When you are in that deep, dark place, how do you find your way out?