“Having believed, you were marked in him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance. . . “ (Ephesians 1:13, 14)
“What is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:18)
Depression is an ongoing battle for me. I am unable to take antidepressants, so each new wave is a struggle to withstand. Friends have suggested that I keep a journal, but that seems to require too much time and effort. They have also suggested that I have a pre-planned strategy to handle these depressive cycles.
As I was reading the above verse about the Holy Spirit, I began thinking of the concept of deposits. One definition of a deposit is a partial payment. I decided to keep a list of all the partial payments, or “little glimpses of eternity”, that God brings in to my life every day. These are my positives. I also remembered that my struggles are temporary, even though right now they seem endless. I list my trials as temporary negatives.
Keeping this daily list has been a tremendous help to my outlook. I am amazed at the many heavenly deposits I am given. Even small things can bring such joy if I allow them to: a bird at my feeder, a rabbit in our yard, a good cup of tea, a phone call from my daughter, sitting outside on a lovely morning with my Bible, and many, many more.
Now when the suffocating heaviness of depression weighs me down, I think of my deposits and remind myself that the trials are temporary. Although I may struggle with depression for my entire earthly life, it is indeed temporary in the light of eternity. I do have to walk through fire in this life, but I have God’s word that I won’t be consumed by it (Isaiah 43:2). His loving presence and comfort are shown in each sign of heaven on earth.
Prayer: Gracious God, thank you for the many ways You reveal yourself to me daily. Thank you for the hope of knowing that one day I will receive my full inheritance, and until that day, Your strength will carry me through my temporary earthly sufferings. Amen.
About the Author:
Bronlynn Spindler lives in VA and is blessed to have the support and encouragement of a wonderful husband and three grown daughters. God’s grace and strength give her the ability to deal with chronic back pain, depression, headaches, and fibromyalgia. You may contact her at email@example.com and view her blog of devotionals at http://www.aplaceofsprings57.blogspot.com.