Abandoned

You have enclosed me behind and before, And laid Your hand upon me.  (Psalm 139:5, NIV)

Have you ever felt alone? I mean completely alone. Abandoned. Lost. Forlorn. I know that the isolating feelings that comes from facing my challenges sometimes leaves me feeling as if I am in the depths of some tremendous void. I have felt that no one understands. I have felt left behind as family and friends can go and do things I cannot. Their lives are moving forward. Mine is, at best, at a standstill. That leaves me feeling completely and utterly alone and often misunderstood.

I have had misguided folks tell me I need to look for sin in my life. I have had others say that I simply don’t have enough faith. To be honest, those types of comments make me want to run and hide.

Then I read a verse like this one. God has me enclosed. He is in front of me. He is behind me. He has His hand on me. I may feel as if I am alone and lost, but God tells me that He is always with me – and not only with me – but surrounding me, enclosing me, holding me. I cannot get away from Him, even if I tried.

The Psalm continues:

Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?

If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,

even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast. (Vs. 7-10)

Oh, dear reader, how I need these words. I need to know God is not only “out there” somewhere – but that He is here – now – holding me, loving me, protecting me. Ever present. He offers that to You, as well.

Prayer: Father God, I praise You that You are an ever present help. That in good times, in bad times, and in the in-between times: You are here. I fervently pray, Lord, that each person looking upon these words, will look to You for all you have to give us when we abandon ourselves to You. Amen

ABOUT THE AUTHOR
deni believes that the only true way to deal with chronic pain and chronic illness is to bring them to the feet of her Lord and Savior. Her multiple challenges (Celiac Sprue, Atrial Fibrillation, Ankylosing Spondylitis, to name a few) have taught her many things about herself and her Christian walk. It is her fondest prayer that some of her words might be encouraging to others as they walk the path of chronic illness. deni can be reached at denipath4change@yahoo.com. Her webpage is http://www.pathwaysforchange.com/Encouragement