Refined In The Fire

"But He knows the way that I take; when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold." (Job 23:10 NIV)

The physician I see when I travel from Pennsylvania to Ohio lacks people skills. Recently, he told me that if I don’t do the horrendous treatments being proposed I shouldn’t expect to live past 5 months. His inflection never changed, his manner didn’t warm up, and he offered nothing in the way of support or comfort. After he dropped this bombshell, he left the room, leaving me in a state of shock.

While I have come to expect this of him, it still catches me off guard when it happens.

While this earthly man had no reaction to the news he delivered, my heavenly Father instantly offered me His words of comfort and peace. A Scripture fragment came to mind: "He knows the way I take." In my shock and dismay, I couldn’t remember where it came from, but it gave me a lifeline to grab on to.

God, the Creator, the Almighty One, knows the "way" – the journey I have been on. He wasn’t surprised (although I was) and has begun to prepare what I will need on the last leg of this journey. I have to believe that the Father has factored cancer into His plan for me and that He did it long before I was even aware of it. His eyes have been on me; He has held me in His tender hands.

He has been with me when I have received news that has shaken me to my very core. The word "cancer," doesn’t send Him running from the room.

Prayer: Heavenly Father, You rush to bring me assurance that You know exactly where I am. There is nothing ahead of me that can detour Your will for my life. You are my God forever and ever and You will be my guide to the end. May this furnace of testing show the true colors of my faith in You, and may I come forth as gold. Amen.

Denny Dowd lives in Pennsylvania with her cat, Shamrock. Denny is a social worker and she enjoys writing, reading, and volunteering. Denny is the world’s biggest Notre Dame Football fan. Denny lives with Chronic Inflammatory Demylineating Polyneuropathy and Cancer and has strong faith that God will see her through even the most difficult of days.