"Lead me, O Lord, in Your righteousness because of my enemies – make straight Your way before me." (Psalm 5:8 NIV)
It is the night before a trip to Ohio for tests; I read the above passage as part of my evening prayers. These tests are being done at the conclusion of a 12 week course of double dose, double time, chemotherapy. I have been calling to God and praying for courage in the face of these tests which I wholeheartedly detest. The above passage is His answer to my prayers.
I am not an overtly emotional person but I was moved to tears as I once again received His assurance that He would lead me, tell me and guide me. My heart knowing all along that He has put a certain path before me – His path, His way.
He so surely gives all of us who suffer with chronic illness and pain, comfort and direction in times of doubt and uncertainty. I continue to believe that He directs each and every footstep, decision I make. When I doubt my decisions, a particular choice of treatment, or even my own ability to get through each day, He is there with a gentle reminder of His steadfast love and care.
Enemies for us can be; negative emotions, tests, procedures, pain, doubt, fear, guilt, shame, etc… His righteousness allows us to be directed and see the way He has put before us – His way.
Prayer: Lord, thank you for the confidence we gain when we turn to You. You are faithful and You show us the way to turn when we are full of fear and doubt. Help us trust You for what is ahead that we cannot see. Continue to direct our footsteps according to Your will. Thank you for the comfort Your words bring to our souls. Amen
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Denny Dowd lives in Pennsylvania with her cat, Shamrock. Denny is a social worker and she enjoys writing, reading, and volunteering. Denny is the world’s biggest Notre Dame Football fan. Denny lives with Chronic Inflammatory Demylineating Polyneuropathy and Cancer and has strong faith that God will see her through even the most difficult of days.