"The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them." (Psalm 34:7 NIV)
The nurse came in at two o’clock this morning to inject a double dose of chemo. I have always been a morning person, but she was just a little overly awake when she began her cheerleading chant, "Go, chemo, go!" I wondered, doesn’t she realize what time it is? She then talked about visualizing chemo as PacMan, gobbling up the cancer cells. Great, I thought, now she’s stuck in the 80’s. Computer games have never, ever, been my thing. She left as happily as she came in, and I was left trying to get some rest.
It did start me thinking about what was significant to me – something I could visualize to help tolerate the chemo. My thoughts landed on something that has been with me all along, my "Peace" flag with the dove on it. I envision doves with wings curled around their bodies to form a circle, and then I imagine them racing down my blood vessels sifting out bad cells. My "Peace" flag reminds me that the Holy Spirit encamps around me and delivers me.
When I cry in pain and feel an absolute loneliness, I know God weeps with me and is right there by my side. I know that the Holy Spirit ministers peace and strength to me when I donít think I can go on another day. His kindness, graciousness and compassion are shown to me through others.
Prayer: Lord, fill me with Your power and presence to overcome illness in my body. May I not leave You for a moment, for Your holy presence wraps me in dove wings. Let me hear the rustle of the Holy Spirit that keeps me from falling into self-pity and doubt. Thank You for Your promise to put the Holy Spirit in charge to watch over me wherever I go. Amen.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR:
Denny Dowd lives in Pennsylvania with her cat, Shamrock. Denny is a social worker and she enjoys writing, reading, and volunteering. Denny is the world’s biggest Notre Dame football fan. Denny lives with Chronic Inflammatory Demylineating Polyneuropathy and cancer and has strong faith that God will see her through even the most difficult of days.